It's been a while since I started this blog. I have so much to say and so much to share, however it is content I should not put on a public forum. However, I have also been unable to express myself and concerns in the appropriate setting.
Personalities clash. People are different. What is right, what is appropriate, what is reasonable, what is vindictive is relative. I still believe that certain people aren't bad, just misguided and believe what they are doing is right. I may be one of them. For a person who has vowed to live drama free, it seems drama follows.
I've been told this week, I need to be less vocal, I need to pull back. This, to me, is telling me to not be me. To not stand up for myself. To not advocate for others. Advocate for your patients (to a certain extent it seems) but not anyone else. Telling me to not be what a Social Worker is made of to the core. I am not ready to accept complacency. I am not ready to accept the continued ignoring of soul sucking.
Soul sucking that has stolen my energy to live a life, to clean my home, to get to work on time. The powerlessness I have felt lately, has shut me down. Taken my energy so I am unable to comment on the world outside within this blog.
Time to care for myself. Take a break. Unable to fully do so, as I feel like I am letting my patients down, not being there. But if I was, I wouldn't be able to properly function, and still let them down, not giving my usual 150%.
Reconciling the need to be away for me and the need to be there for them is proving difficult.
My energy has been taken elsewhere and trapped. Do I accept futility? Is it really futile? Will I be the one to start much needed change or will I be the one to be targeted, labelled, and crushed?
Can I ignore the internal push to say something? To do something? When it just doesn't feel right. When I know its not right? I don't think I can. But what will that mean for my future as a Social Worker here?
Dynamics are a part of life. The solution is usually to remove the negative from your life. This negative I can't remove from my life. Not without removing myself from that setting. That I will not do. I will not be pushed out. How do I co-exist with the fear, the anxiety, the backstabbing? Backstabbing that isn't considered backstabbing or wrong by the other party. The other party genuinely being hurt by what they believe to be true. The other party of a personality type that is unable to see outside their own world, outside their own idea of how things should be. Unable to ever see my perception. Unable to try to understand me when I always try to understand them and give the benefit of the doubt. How can I win? How can I ever be free from their judging and what they see a corrective punishment, but what I see as overreacting without trying to understand why?
Perception and Belief is what Reality is made of. One's reality in a moment can be so different to another's reality in what is supposedly the same moment.
Friday, 9 December 2011
Monday, 3 October 2011
Saturday, 1 October 2011
"Richest Province, Lowest Minimum Wage"
- Alberta will have the lowest provincial minimum wage by November 1st, 2011.
- Workers who serve alcohol will be paid a lower minimum wage, only $9.05.
- There will not be a wage increase for servers until the minimum wage is $10.05 (years from now).
- One out of every 8 employed Albertans (234,200 people) make less than $12/hour.
- $12/hour is just below the poverty line for an individual working full time.
- A Living Wage would be much more than $12/hour for someone with children.
Sign up for the campaign. Go to Facebook.com/NotALivingWage
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If the government is admitting that small business owners can't find employees if they only pay minimum wage, and have to offer a higher wage, than why is it an issue if we guarantee minimum wage to be a living wage, keeping minimum wage earners above the poverty line? Those being paid minimum wage exist and they aren't making it. Especially those with children.
Minimum wage should never be below a living wage. Ever!
Those making the least money, actually end up costing the government the most money because they need to work AND be on income support or another government funded program. However, a conservative government will continue to cut back funding for these types of services, and then we are left with people not able to feed their children, can't access assistance, poor health results, potential illegal actions as a way to survive, etc, and there we go again, with it still coming back around to cost the government money, and us as taxpayers, in hospital stays, and jail time, and so on and so on.
Everything is connected. We can't be oblivious to it!
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